Funk Soul Ryan

clueless

2006-12-06T10:33:00.000+08:00

I am confused...even after being together things get much complicated.
You just never seems to get what i want. As much as you want me to be there for you
all the time...i expect the same. You said i did not give you opportunity to do so.
How to when i don't have time to tell you my problems. Yes true enough it doesn't seem like
you matter to me. It is not clear that i prioritise you most of the time. But simple sacrifices
i did need no recognition. Before you i have never cry for a girl. Many times i told you, you are
different. You change alot about me eversince 11 of May....i love you...more than everything else
in this world. I still love you no matter what you have done to me. I still do...the love that i have
for you is still strong. I am afraid of losing you every single day...i put aside whatever people say...
just so that i know...i know you best...you claimed i trust others words more than trusting yourself..
no...i do not...yes i admit i did hurt you alot of times before...but what makes me do all this things...
because im hurt by you too...i am not a revengeful person. I won't gain anything by doing so...your
ignorance is a pain...just because i am a guy doesn't mean i am strong enough to go through all my
problems alone. That is why i need you...as much as you do need me...noone knows what we are going
through best other than you and me. Now that you say you will stay...but i won't anymore be one of
the top priorities in your life...it is ok...i am glad that you want to stay even though i come in last now...
i am thankful...thank you...i still love you farah no matter what....

29-11-2006

2006-11-30T10:47:00.000+08:00

At last.
Together.
i love you farah.

when it is really just me and you

2006-11-19T19:14:00.000+08:00

it is as simple as saying

i love you...

yes you...

you know who you are...

i see rainbow on the purple skies

2006-10-29T19:49:00.000+08:00

Hello!

I think now im torn...rewind to forward...easy it is not...
please accept me as me...the simple me...
I don't like it too when things get complex...
sometimes i deny...well...most of the time...
that i love you still...still strong...no matter how down u put me...
still there is always ways you do that make me fall in love all over again with you...
but...
i believe she deserve a chance to have me like how u used to too...
but...
it is not clear yet that she can be mine...like u used to...
complicated-

its easy for u to say goodbye

2006-10-14T02:30:00.000+08:00

I am clueless...
I am lost...
I think its time...
im sorry...

hit me

2006-09-25T01:27:00.000+08:00

If you were joking abt making a joke, then does that mean you weren't joking in the first place?
But how can you not be joking when you started it off with a joke in the first place?

One of the most profound mysteries in life! Indeed!

hahahaa...well obviously this post is random dun mind me, just cant put myself to sleep.
Well its already Ramadhan, Happy Fasting to you all fellow muslims. and sorry for the hiatus, busy
with prelims.

-and you, yes you i'll always love you, leaving you, never.
miss u. nite.

You remind me of yesterday

2006-09-10T08:30:00.000+08:00

Emo. i break free and let loose. Im down. down. down and under.
I need her. I need her so much but...

p.s you are definitely rare-

fistful

2006-09-08T09:31:00.000+08:00

Frustration enveloping all over me. I don't know how Im supposed to feel right now.
Angry. Dissappointed. Sad. Vulnerable. Annoyed. Agitated. Neglected. Guilty.
I guess Im just weak. Im a definite lover whom yea, not a fighter. So all I could do
was just cry. yes, i cry just incase you ppl think im heartless and have no feelings.
Yes I know Im making things complicated. I know the solution to it. And yea, its freaking
easy to be done. But Im just complicating the whole situation. Thats on the surface.
But deep down u ppl should know. How hard isit for me to accept the right one into my life.
This time round I invest too much of my feelings into this relationship. I became too dependant
on the other half. Cos basically I talk to her almost 24 hrs. We are so close. I love her with all
my heart. AAAAARGH!!! WHY MUST THIS FUCKERS WHO'VE LEFT THEIR GFS COME BACK
AND START TO CLARIFY THINGS AND YADA YADA AFTER SHE MOVED ON. FUCKERS.
FUCKERS. FUCKERS. BEING IN A R'SHIP THIS TIME ROUND MAKE ME SEE THE REAL NATURE
OF GUYS THAT I DON'T KNOW OF ACTUALLY EXIST. FUCKERS WHO JUST DON'T GET IT
THAT IF SHE'S SEEING SOMEONE MEANING LEAVE HER ALONE SHE' SOMEONE'S YOU FUCKERS!
STICKING TO HER AND BE STUPID HOPING SHE'LL ACCEPT YOU ONE DAY. YOU STUPID SOB CAN GO
AND DREAM ON IN YOUR OWN FREAKING LALALAND. THIS CLEARLY SHOWN THAT IM JUST SO
LUCKY THAT HOW BAD OR HIDEOUS THE PPL AROUND ME ARE BUT YET MY GUY FRIENDS
I HAVE TO SALUTE THEM FOR BEING A REAL MAN. YEAH MY FRIENDS DO FUCK AROUND BUT THEY
DON'T WAIT AND HIT ON SOMEONE'S ELSE GIRLFRIENDS. OR PERHAPS YEA MY FRIENDS ARE SOOO
MUCH BETTER LOOKING AND HAS CONFIDENCE TO GET THEIR OWN GF. IM SOOO SAD FOR THIS LOSERS
OUT THERE WHO HAVE TO ON OTHER GUYS GFS...PATHETIC!

bottomline, i just need to vent it here. MIA. Fez, i know u are reading this...come back soon yeah..

Fast and Furious

2006-09-06T11:44:00.000+08:00

:) :) :) :) :)

I just haven't been in the right state of mind since hours ago.
My resolutions went down the drain. I can never have one it will always
go unfulfilled. All thanks to myself. Seriously, I need some self-control
therapy. Ouh yea, have you guys heard about Steve Irwin? The crocodile hunter.
He's dead while doing don't know what with a stingray. I just find it weird.
He have been hunting crocodiles all this while but he's dead due to a stingray???
Hmm...it would sound much daring and terror if it were due to a whale, shark or
perhaps those crocodiles he have been hunting all this while...nvm..drop Steve Irwin's topic,
may his soul rest in peace.

Okay, I still don't know what to do with this big isetan paper bag under my bed.
It contains all my SMALL size tees. Its folded nicely and still smell of softlan.
Some are even ironed. They are all still in good condition, trust me Im very particular
about my stuffs especially my clothes. Give them away? Sell them away? hmmm...
nad gave me an idea of which I initially thot was stupid. She told me to keep it for my sons
in the future...hahaha...by den my tees would either be out of fashion or they'll be exclusive
cos noone has it anymore. But I think Im keeping my bands tees I'm sure they'll be in
demand in the future.

Speaking about selling stuffs I'm selling my ps 2. Yea, after much consideration,
I don't think I need it anymore. Im big enough that means I've to stop playing
games and now since Im always online might as well I play those games online.
Yes, Im selling it away, complete set along with all my 32 games. I've even found
a buyer. Negotiated about the prices and stuffs. Hmm...*the dollars sign on my eyeballs*
hahaha...I can see the moolahs making their way gelek gelek to my wallet...hahaha..k2 mepek.

I made up my mind. yes, i'll prompt it again. Soon, baby, soon...just a while more.

Gay. Period.

beautiful day

2006-09-05T13:12:00.000+08:00

Everyday is a beautiful one with you around, baby.

so many things need to be done while so little time left.

creamy

2006-09-03T11:13:00.000+08:00

My crave for creamy chicken is finally over yesterday!
So yea it was another food indulging outing with the makan gang feat. trish.
Hafiz cojack was supposed to join but since that SOB is having a hangover obviously
he has to pass on this. Hangover???...been quite sometime for me. haha.
So after dinner at Pastamania we made our way to SWEETALK and Han's,
so peach red tea and chocolate truffle cake it was for me. Aaaaaaannnnnnddddd....u people
should definitely give the chocolate truffle a try...worth ur 2 singapore dollars! Trust me!
So as usual sat down and talk and crap...and Trish i swear i'll let u drink the water from my
soaked smelly dirty socks next time u speak that loud again in public. Just fyi for those of you
who don't know Trish is Cheryl younger sister. And yea like her sister she does have a big mouth too, but
i must say they have good hearts...hahahaha... Back to the topic, its nothing wrong to speak loudly in
public, i does that too but not when you are talking abt x-rated stuff u eejit! and left those aunty and uncles
around us glaring. After an hour or so of telling the whole Han's abt our sexual fantasies they accompanied
me to POPULAR yes it has become my 2nd house as claimed by Farah since i've been visiting it often lately.
After getting my things took the train home.
Reached home talk to my sayang till ard 12 and continue doing my stuffs
and washed up. Stayed up till ard 3 am thot of sleeping after that but i can't seem to.
And i just feel like having something to munch on and maybe a partner to laugh my ass off in the
wee hours in the morning so i resort to none other than Cher since we live a few blocks away.
So to mamak 24hrs we go. Emo talk at 4am i tell you is extra touching with the blows of wind and quiet surrounding...jiwe...but too much wind also not good cos we both end up getting sleepy so made our way home and this time i managed to sleep at ard 6am.
Was supposed to wake Farah up at 7.30am but i guess the alarm was too soft this morning and the
vibration didn't seem to stir me one bit. Luckly she woke up by 7.35 when she msged me. Sorry dear.
And i continued my sleep till ard 9 plus or 10 i think. and now....here i am blogging for you
my fellow fans....hahahaha...quick replies to the comments...Cher: eh cb its 4am la nobody care what i wore ok..Mel: who's a racist bastard now? atleast i dont move away when meenatchi sat the same table as
me during recess, eejit!

p.s 14344!

down, down and gone

2006-09-01T13:03:00.000+08:00

Just a month or so to the moment of FREEDOM!
hahaha...yes, been stucked in a tertiary education
for a whole good 4 jollysome years is coming to an
end soon.

Im hungry....and i feel like having something like....
pastamania sounds good and ice cream...and bubbletea
okay everything sounds soooo good right now.

Soccer later, so yea more updates soon.

p.s can i have you?

Make love

2006-08-31T15:46:00.000+08:00

Close your eyes, make a wish
and blow out the candlelight
For tonight is just your night
We're gonna celebrate,
all thru the night Pour the wine,
light the fire Girl your wish is my command I submit to your demands I'll do anything,
girl you need only ask

I'll make love to you Like you want me to
And I'll hold you tight Baby all through the night
I'll make love to you
When you want me to
And I will not let go Till you tell me to

Girl relax, let's go slow
I ain't got nowhere to go
I'm just gonna concentrate on you
Girl are you ready, it's gonna be a long night
Throw your clothes on the floor
I'm gonna take my clothes off too
I made plans to be with you
Girl whatever you ask me you know I'll do

Baby tonight is your night
And I will do you right
Just make a wish on your night
Anything that you ask
I will give you the love of your life

-I'll make love to you, Boys II Men

Portal

2006-08-29T23:08:00.000+08:00

Standing on the outside,
looking in.
Afraid to knock
on the door infront of you.
How many times have
you stood at the threshold
but been too scared to cross?
What is it you fear?
The unknown lies ahead.
What awaits you on the other side?
Only one way to find out.
The door swings open,
will you enter?

On a totally different note, hanging out sessions with mamasan, mrs. lee and fez as usual was a great one.
hahaha....joke of the day=BAM BAM'S ANATOMY....hahahaa....

p.s I love you, Farah *muaaaaacks* :)

Refresh

2006-08-29T12:25:00.000+08:00

Ahhh...yes! Its a new beginning. Fully recovered. Its time to think for the future and move on from the past. trust me, things are gonna change for the better.

:) :) :)